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And there are things these days
That can help you through a phase
Like food & health & fear
I prefer the beer
Not the way that I don’t love you
But the way that I hate myself

(”TV Show“, M. W)

Say I have known some
Less than I should
Say I have known some
Too well for my own good
Say I’m a saint of mercy
Say I’m a whore
I’ve been a lot of things
But never yours

(”Never Yours“, T.C)

I’m tired, irritable and feel like every photo I have taken lately is .. wrong. It’s so frustrating.

A & I finally reconciled after me pretty much ruining his 21st birthday by accidentally sending a rather nasty message about him to him, instead of someone else. Oops. In an act of revenge he waxed me.. oh, the pain… mm. I hadn’t bought myself any clothes since Micha & Miriam visited sometime back in April! So today I popped down to H&M Kids! Oh how I love being a dwarf with the body of an 8 year old. Seriously, I have a t-shirt that’s age 8, a jumper that’s age 10 and jeans that are age 13. But I guess I do have the advantage that I can buy all this for just £25. Tax free! Huzzah!

• Papa is back in the country (god knows how long it’s been, but quite a few years since I’ve seen him in England). He’s coming to pick me up tomorrow as it’s grandad’s ashes burial. This means time spent in an enclosed space with my estranged father…
• This also means: seeing Papa’s family whom I haven’t seen for about ten years. One of them just found out that I’m a big ol’ gay and seeing as how they’re all Catholics, I can’t see this being an easy trip. I think I’ll do a hit ‘n’ run - arrive, watch the ashes scatter and leave!
• Word is there’s a little treat waiting for me at home.. and I am just ever so excited. You’ll see soon.

Have a nice weekend.

Sia’s “Breathe Me” always seems to strip away any feeling and leaves me hollow, void and waiting to be held.. She probably doesn’t know how much I miss her when she’s not here, but when she is.. the world is aflame with joy. Even when sleeping she’s so beautiful…

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• I am in love… with the new Télépopmusik album. Perfection.
• Horny. Always so horny!
• Delirious over-worked shifts at work. Hell on earth.
• Evs comes to visit tomorrow. Excitement builds deeply. And I have the weekend off!
• No fun when the cashpoint reads “You may withdraw NIL.” I am officially on the breadline.